Thursday, 22 May 2014

Still a wish.

The doctors explained my husband the  situation. He underwent CT scan, Ultrasound and every other test. It was difficult to complete the tests.He could not lie on his back and had constant vomits. The endoscopy was not successful either. The biopsy and FNAC reports confirmed metastasis.

He was depressed to learn about it.He understood the implications of metastasis of the cancer.His vitals were normal with the iv fluids.The doctors concluded that nothing could be done to combat the cancer , since he had severe weight loss . Only supportive treatment could secure him for some time. They clearly told us, he has 'short' life, do not attempt any thing else now on him like surgery, chemo or radiation.After 15 days of struggle, we decided to go back to Dun , with a hope that he may start oral intake and iv will discontinue.

We boarded the night train. My husband co operated through out.He controlled his cough all through the night so that fellow passengers don't get disturbed.My cute and courageous younger daughter, Reha, had her birthday ,the next day.I always like to celebrate my kids birthday.I called up a panditjee, while we were still in the train. It was a surprise to my husband and daughter. A havan  to invoke gods blessings on all of us.

 We reached home and made Mr. Nayyar comfortable on his bed.Panditji, performed a beautiful havan.He blessed Reha and all of us. We all sat by Mr. Nayyar and Reha cut her b'day cake.The daughters are always papa's angels. At night, Rahul treated his sisters with a lovely dinner.They did not want to go, their heart was at home with papa. I pushed them, a change was must for all three of them.
The next day, I arranged for Panchkarma ayurvedic massage therapy for my husband. At home, we had a doctor and nurse who put him on iv  fluids.But, he was not comfortable.For the first time, he started to get breathless.He did not have the strength to even sit down.He asked us to hospitalize him at the nearest hospital.

Recently, the Max  Hospital was  established in Dehradun. I used to visit there for the flushing of my port, Their cancer centre is new and budding. The onco surgeon and medical oncologist are two brilliant people. Mr. Nayyar used to accompany me during port flushing. He had developed a wonderful rapport with the doctors..So, we hospitalised him at Max.They immediately commenced the supportive treatment.

My husband's feet had swollen and his urine was dark colored and frothy. The doctors ran few blood tests. His creatinine, urea had shot up. The liver functions test indicated Jaundice. The doctors very wisely decided against any CT scans,MRIs etc as the exposure may adversely effect the kidneys.The hemoglobin dropped below the normal level. The urologist denied dialysis as the urine output was considerable. Nothing much could be done at this stage.An oxygen mask  maintained his saturation level.

The next night, he grew uncomfortable and started to breathe heavily.He tried to take control . He was conscious. The doctors did an ECG and the heart did not look good.He was wheeled to the ICU.

The next afternoon, the doctors called us to explain the situation. He said the malignancy has spread everywhere. The body was giving up.He suggested we take him back to the ward and just stay around him.We understood what he meant. We informed our relatives.

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