We may not have control over life and death but can develop
large physical power and immense psychic power which can help overcome your
disease.
God takes us by hand and He walks with us; He talks to us ;
and He tells us that we are His own.
My 6th chemo cycle arrived on 24th
June. I had mixed feelings- that of relief that this was going to be my last
chemo and that of fear of the torture that I would have to endure during the
cycle.
I mentally prepared myself to win the battle and gear up for
the 28 days of radiation that lay ahead.
I was happy that till now I had won each round that
comprised of chemotherapy induction followed by injections to stimulate stem
cells, antibiotics and multivitamins. This would the lead to 10 days of rest at
home following which I would join my office so that my leaves may continue to
accumulate that I could the use in the future in time of need. Equally
important for me was to ensure that I continued to draw salary that would come
in handy during my radiation.
I am now waiting for two weeks to pass by from when my chemo
finished as I would then be allows to resume eating raw fruits and vegetables
that I thoroughly missed during my illness.
During my sixth chemo cycle, my Hemoglobin and blood
platelets reduced again. I have taken it upon myself to bring back by Hb and Platelet
count to normal before my radiation starts by forcing myself to eat. I have to
dig deep inside to find the strength to ingest food when every inch of my body
resists the sight and smell of food.
Before my discharge from the hospital, the senior
radiologist explained the radiation cycles and its procedure so that I could visualize
before hand how I was going to spend the five weeks scheduled for the therapy.
A chest cast was made that I would be using during radiation. This cast would
protect my other healthy organs from the strong radio waves. My therapist
forewarned me that my immune will be at an all time low during radio therapy
and hence I would have to take special care of hygiene and cleanliness.
When you yearn for God, He will come to you. He is the
nearest of the near….Dearest of the dear.
Just like the previous chemo cycle,
this time too my husband and I were put
in the same hospital suite along with our two children.
All that time,I prayed to the Almighty through my Guruji to
reduce the suffering of my husband. His children have been with him for the
past six months and have shared the suffering with us, emotionally, physically
and professionally. I wish my husband shared my appreciation for meditation and
self prayer.
Herbert Benson, Md Havard Medical School in 1987 said “ Through
meditation you can set the stage for important mind and habit altering brain
change. Scientific research has shown that electrical activity between the left
and right side of the brain becomes cooridinated during certain kinds of meditation
and prayer. Through these processes the mind definitely becomes more capable of
being altered and having its capacities maximized. Changed life and changed
actions follow. The implications are exciting…even staggering.
These entire six months, I continued to pray for my husband’s
recovery .Mental strength is of paramount importance as a method of self
healing because mind is the governor of all living cells in our bodies. The
mind and body are wonderfully related. Many people can be healed by mere
suggestion. Will power and energy are important. They are the real creators of
the body. They rouse energy which is cause of healing. When we continue to
practice visualize of healing, you may find that your thoughts start to materialise.
I am looking forward to going back to Dehradun. I love my
Doon, its beauty during rains, the climate and its people who still retain the
small town innocence.
Now I will prepare myself for the radiation cycle in two
weeks time.
